Know more God. 

I’ve known since I was a child that it was good for me to stop avoiding myself and just sit down.  It was the last thing I wanted to do.  Sitting with myself meant that I had to feel the awful feelings inside of me.  

 

It wasn't until about seven years ago that I had an enlightening experience in a yoga class that showed me what can happen when I sit and be with myself in silence.  

 

We began class in a seated posture.  This day we sat for longer than usual.   My back got really uncomfortable and I thought "This is why I don’t like sitting in silence."  I was instructed to turn my attention inward and discover what my discomfort was about.  

 

I noticed terror in my back.  I was oozing terror out of the burning feeling in my back.  I was emptying my fear onto the floor.   I heard my own inner child wailing, so very raw.  It touched my heart and I started to cry.    A warm feeling of self compassion came over me.  I felt like I was being cleansed and nurtured by the divine.  I felt so grateful.     

 

We sat there  long enough for the terror to completely subside.  A  feeling of peace, grace and bliss, filled my insides.  Bright light illuminated me and my worries started to slip away. Nothing but the moment mattered as I basked in divine glow.   I thought, "This is genius, I hit the jackpot!”   I understood immediately  why people give up everything to sit in silence.

All of this happened in under 10 minutes.