Know more God.
I’ve known since I was a child that it was good for me to stop avoiding myself and just sit down. It was the last thing I wanted to do. Sitting with myself meant that I had to feel the awful feelings inside of me.
It wasn't until about seven years ago that I had an enlightening experience in a yoga class that showed me what can happen when I sit and be with myself in silence.
We began class in a seated posture. This day we sat for longer than usual. My back got really uncomfortable and I thought "This is why I don’t like sitting in silence." I was instructed to turn my attention inward and discover what my discomfort was about.
I noticed terror in my back. I was oozing terror out of the burning feeling in my back. I was emptying my fear onto the floor. I heard my own inner child wailing, so very raw. It touched my heart and I started to cry. A warm feeling of self compassion came over me. I felt like I was being cleansed and nurtured by the divine. I felt so grateful.
We sat there long enough for the terror to completely subside. A feeling of peace, grace and bliss, filled my insides. Bright light illuminated me and my worries started to slip away. Nothing but the moment mattered as I basked in divine glow. I thought, "This is genius, I hit the jackpot!” I understood immediately why people give up everything to sit in silence.
All of this happened in under 10 minutes.